Hot 4 Halloween - Day 3

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Last night I was watching King of the Hill, and it was the episode about Luanne's alcoholic mother and her going back to the bottle. Then I watched Orphan and saw the mother struggle with her drinking problem, and right then I realized how bad my addiction to food is. The way this woman was struggling to keep herself from taking a sip is how I feel trying to keep my calories under control. That's sad! When and why did I let food have this kind of control over me?

I had the hardest time falling asleep last night. It's been unusually cool (high 60's/low 70's), and now it's warming back up to the 80's. I kept thinking about having a piece of brownie with caramel sauce drizzled on top; kept thinking about it...and thinking about it....after 30 minutes of thinking I went and got the damn brownie and drizzled warm caramel sauce on top of it. A 235-calorie late night snack, if I didn't have the caramel sauce I wouldn't have been 65 calories over yesterdays budget. In terms of the calories, it's not so bad, but I'm disappointed in myself for giving in and having it. It gets worse though, after watching Orphan and having that little epiphany, I ate 2 slices of pizza (700 calories). I'm counting those as part of today's calories since it was 2am when I ate it. Why oh why?! I'm making adjustments accordingly; and while the habits still aren't good, maybe this is a more realistic way of handling them. Eventually I will be eating more healthy foods, I plan on adding more raw foods into my diet as soon as I get a job.

I didn't get out of bed until 1:30 pm. So for lunch I had a PB&J sandwich and an apple. It's a satisfying low-cal meal. Dinner consisted of 3 scrambled eggs, one of those BagelThins, and a slice of cheese for a total of 470 calories. Then I was feeling hungry and had a slice of pizza (270 calories), and later I had a brownie with the caramel sauce (235 calories). I know I know, not the best choices. Not sticking to that goal I made this week too well either, huh? In all fairness, everything I ate was within my calorie budget (after I worked out), and my main focus is to not drink my calories through soda. Yes, this is how I justify myself.

My body is sore from working out yesterday, and I fought with myself to move. It's sooo hot! I can sweat just lying here watching TV. So my workout was later this evening and I only did 15 minutes. I still worked up a good sweat, thanks to the humidity. What I did was a combination of moves from Hip Hop Abs, briskly walking in place, and some kickboxing moves. Nothing too dramatic, but it was enough to wake me up and get in some cardio. I think getting in cardio 3 days in a row is the farthest I've ever made it. Woo hoo! I'm looking forward to day 4.

I got all my water in for the day, 76 out 64 oz. I've also been drinking some tea that I saw another YouTuber talk about. It's from Teavana and it's called Weight To Go!. I hate tea, but when I water this stuff down and mix it with a little grapefruit juice it's not too bad. So it adds a little variety to the endless bottles of water; I don't know if it works, but I did lose 1.2 lbs between yesterday and today. I'm just saying.... It could also be the fact that I'm eating/drinking less calories than before, moving more, and drinking a lot more water. I don't count the tea in my waterlog, so I'm most likely getting more than what I'm tracking.

I feel like I'm rambling and that anyone who reads this is shaking their head in disappointment. :/

Goodnight interwebs. <3