I had a Coke Zero today.
We were out shopping and we picked up something for lunch and I decided to grab a soda. However, I'm not totally stressing over it.
We also stopped by a winery and picked up some yummy, sweet wine. It was the best wine I've ever had. So in love! <3
The weather has been gorgeous today and I even got in an hour of walking, which I think will just be my daily workout. I may dance a little bit later tonight though, haven't decided yet.
A wonderful day with the family. Now I'm starving and about to go make a salad for dinner. Have a lovely evening everyone! :)
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Getting back on track.
Whoa, so sorry for that last post. I was feeling really bogged down with life's shitty side. All better now. :)
I weighed-in today at 340.0 lbs., and that is a gain of 2.6 lbs. from last week. Obviously it's not a surprise since I was stepping on the scale every morning. Today I didn't really care about the number. I'm feeling slimmer, and my body moves better. I checked a couple of measurements and I do believe I've lost an inch off my waist since August 1st. Woo hoo!
So, with every gain comes a new gameplan. I am cutting out soda, strictly, forever. It's quite obvious that I can't control myself around it. And I'm okay with the ban because I did it before. I will also be upping my exercise. 30 minutes every day, at least. Today I did 60 minutes, yay! I am aiming for 64 oz. of water daily, it's only 6:45 pm and I've already exceeded that. The food will take a while to work on, but I'm trying to be more conscious about when and why I'm eating.
Today has been a success. Now I need to clean the house before the parentals get home. lol Goodnight loves! <3
I weighed-in today at 340.0 lbs., and that is a gain of 2.6 lbs. from last week. Obviously it's not a surprise since I was stepping on the scale every morning. Today I didn't really care about the number. I'm feeling slimmer, and my body moves better. I checked a couple of measurements and I do believe I've lost an inch off my waist since August 1st. Woo hoo!
So, with every gain comes a new gameplan. I am cutting out soda, strictly, forever. It's quite obvious that I can't control myself around it. And I'm okay with the ban because I did it before. I will also be upping my exercise. 30 minutes every day, at least. Today I did 60 minutes, yay! I am aiming for 64 oz. of water daily, it's only 6:45 pm and I've already exceeded that. The food will take a while to work on, but I'm trying to be more conscious about when and why I'm eating.
Today has been a success. Now I need to clean the house before the parentals get home. lol Goodnight loves! <3
Saturday, August 21, 2010
I'm done.
Day by day plays are done.
Weighing myself every day is done.
Worrying about my weight every fucking second is done.
These past couple of days I was not my happy, motivated self.
My mom was home yesterday and decided it would be a good day to bitch at me, after a heated argument with a co-worker the day before. At least I didn't stress-eat. I don't like working out when my parents are home; I have to hole up in my hot, cramped room and they always bother me. So no workout. I have been drinking soda like crazy again. Like 2 cans a day, including today.
Today was pretty good though. It was a beautiful day and I got in an awesome 60 minute workout (cardio-50, weights-10). I pampered myself afterwards. Now I feel like complete crap, and I think it might have been the chicken I had for lunch. I can never tell when something has gone bad. :/
I just watched Greg's video and it got me thinking. I was going to comment, but realized I was ranting; it's blog material, I think.
I say it all the time: I want to lose weight. I hate being fat. I'm not happy like this. However, I continue to choose bad food; I continue to take a day off from working out. It's a continuous cycle that is slowly increasing my weight. Then I sit there, stuffing my face, and wonder what it's going to take to make me change. I get so pissed off at myself for not truly wanting to lose this weight. Because if I really wanted it I would do it; wouldn't I? Why do I continue to choose this life that I've hated since I was 4 years old? Why won't I change after having some scary experiences that clearly depict how unhealthy I am right now? Sometimes I wish I would just have a heart attack and die already. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this either.
I feel lost.
Weighing myself every day is done.
Worrying about my weight every fucking second is done.
These past couple of days I was not my happy, motivated self.
My mom was home yesterday and decided it would be a good day to bitch at me, after a heated argument with a co-worker the day before. At least I didn't stress-eat. I don't like working out when my parents are home; I have to hole up in my hot, cramped room and they always bother me. So no workout. I have been drinking soda like crazy again. Like 2 cans a day, including today.
Today was pretty good though. It was a beautiful day and I got in an awesome 60 minute workout (cardio-50, weights-10). I pampered myself afterwards. Now I feel like complete crap, and I think it might have been the chicken I had for lunch. I can never tell when something has gone bad. :/
I just watched Greg's video and it got me thinking. I was going to comment, but realized I was ranting; it's blog material, I think.
I say it all the time: I want to lose weight. I hate being fat. I'm not happy like this. However, I continue to choose bad food; I continue to take a day off from working out. It's a continuous cycle that is slowly increasing my weight. Then I sit there, stuffing my face, and wonder what it's going to take to make me change. I get so pissed off at myself for not truly wanting to lose this weight. Because if I really wanted it I would do it; wouldn't I? Why do I continue to choose this life that I've hated since I was 4 years old? Why won't I change after having some scary experiences that clearly depict how unhealthy I am right now? Sometimes I wish I would just have a heart attack and die already. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this either.
I feel lost.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Prince Charming
This one is about a boy. He's really not a boy, he's a man. A perfectly matched, totally made for me man. The silly part of it all is that we've never actually met (laugh, joke, call me a loser). Anyway, I've known him for a little over a year now and we're friends....kind of. Like, I find it hard to be his friend when I want to devour him. I don't mean that sexually either, it's not like that. He's super smart, undoubtedly funny, and irresistibly charming. It's probably the most cliché thing to say, but if I had to make out a list of what I wanted in a man his name would be the only thing I had to write. He's my perfect.
I usually have the hardest time talking to my crushes, but I can talk to him. He's easygoing, so it's really not a problem. Girls love him and are always flirting, he flirts back making them all feel special, myself included. It's funny how he can do it so openly and no one gets jealous. Are you starting to understand just how charming he is? lol
So my intention was to complain, but I've done nothing but sing his praises here.
The complaint: He and I will never be Us. :(
I kind of get this feeling from him that it would just never happen, even under the best circumstances. And that frustrates the hell out of me. To have found someone so made for you and know that you will most likely never be with them just kills. It absolutely kills me. Sometimes I even doubt this friendship thing we have because he is so nice to everyone and gets along with just about anyone, it kind of lessens the "I'm special" feeling. I haven't felt like this about anyone since my high school crush (he's another story).
I don't even know if it's weight-related, but it probably is since that usually rules every overweight person's life. I'm afraid of ruining whatever chance I may have with him, so I try to act smarter than I am and have learned to be fairly humorous in hopes of impressing him. When I do make him laugh or openly admire my wit it's like winning some amazing prize (other than him, lol). It's a stupid game! I'm tired of playing these games with boys. It's a complete mindfuck, and I just can't take it anymore.
I haven't actually told him how I feel. I flirt and joke, and he may know, but nothing official has been said. I use to do that, I use to tell my crushes how I felt and that blew-up in my face a few times. **Side Note: When I was about 11 or 12, I looked up my crush's number in the phone book, called him, and asked him out. Got a big no way, and that's pretty much where it all began.**
He's my fairytale Prince Charming, unfortunately only in my little dreamworld.
I usually have the hardest time talking to my crushes, but I can talk to him. He's easygoing, so it's really not a problem. Girls love him and are always flirting, he flirts back making them all feel special, myself included. It's funny how he can do it so openly and no one gets jealous. Are you starting to understand just how charming he is? lol
So my intention was to complain, but I've done nothing but sing his praises here.
The complaint: He and I will never be Us. :(
I kind of get this feeling from him that it would just never happen, even under the best circumstances. And that frustrates the hell out of me. To have found someone so made for you and know that you will most likely never be with them just kills. It absolutely kills me. Sometimes I even doubt this friendship thing we have because he is so nice to everyone and gets along with just about anyone, it kind of lessens the "I'm special" feeling. I haven't felt like this about anyone since my high school crush (he's another story).
I don't even know if it's weight-related, but it probably is since that usually rules every overweight person's life. I'm afraid of ruining whatever chance I may have with him, so I try to act smarter than I am and have learned to be fairly humorous in hopes of impressing him. When I do make him laugh or openly admire my wit it's like winning some amazing prize (other than him, lol). It's a stupid game! I'm tired of playing these games with boys. It's a complete mindfuck, and I just can't take it anymore.
I haven't actually told him how I feel. I flirt and joke, and he may know, but nothing official has been said. I use to do that, I use to tell my crushes how I felt and that blew-up in my face a few times. **Side Note: When I was about 11 or 12, I looked up my crush's number in the phone book, called him, and asked him out. Got a big no way, and that's pretty much where it all began.**
He's my fairytale Prince Charming, unfortunately only in my little dreamworld.
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 18
Holy shizz...my whole body aches from the workout I did yesterday. I mean, I did push myself...a little bit, but it was really fun too. I didn't expect it to hurt so bad. So today I hadn't planned on working out, but seeing all the amazing comments on my workout video and that it even inspired some people to get up and move changed my mind. I got my sweat on with some old school Gloria Estefan (Conga), Cher (Body to Body, Heart to Heart), and random 60's party rock CDs we had lying around. So so fun!
I'm exhausted, again. I've been going to bed around 9:30pm and waking up at 4:30-5:00am. At least the sleep thing is kind of back on track. When I weighed-in this morning I was really disappointed. Now granted I did eat more than I should have yesterday (bowl of BBQ chicken & rice, 2 slices of pizza, a huge ass salad, a couple spoonfuls of brownie batter, and 2 chicken salad sandwiches--I know I know!), but I had a fairly decent workout and got 76 oz. of water in. The scale said I was back up to 341.6 lbs. No effing way! I'm just going to blame it on the food. I don't know why I did it, but I ate until I felt sick. Grrr.
Confession time. I wasn't going to say anything; I had made up my mind as soon as I did it without a second thought, but right now the guilt is eating away at me. I had a can of Coke....and Mountain Dew. *huge shameface* I know I said I won't drink it anymore and that it tastes disgusting, but now it's not as disgusting. I don't know why I even went for one, or two. I still don't have that craving that I was struggling with the first week, and I don't feel obsessed or bound to the sugar/caffeine combination. Maybe it was the bad food I was eating (leftover pizza)? I feel like I failed today, yet I'm not completely upset with myself. My soda intake has been cut down drastically: I was drinking 2-4 cans every single day. So for that I am proud, but I did have to tell you guys.
Did you workout today?
I'm exhausted, again. I've been going to bed around 9:30pm and waking up at 4:30-5:00am. At least the sleep thing is kind of back on track. When I weighed-in this morning I was really disappointed. Now granted I did eat more than I should have yesterday (bowl of BBQ chicken & rice, 2 slices of pizza, a huge ass salad, a couple spoonfuls of brownie batter, and 2 chicken salad sandwiches--I know I know!), but I had a fairly decent workout and got 76 oz. of water in. The scale said I was back up to 341.6 lbs. No effing way! I'm just going to blame it on the food. I don't know why I did it, but I ate until I felt sick. Grrr.
Confession time. I wasn't going to say anything; I had made up my mind as soon as I did it without a second thought, but right now the guilt is eating away at me. I had a can of Coke....and Mountain Dew. *huge shameface* I know I said I won't drink it anymore and that it tastes disgusting, but now it's not as disgusting. I don't know why I even went for one, or two. I still don't have that craving that I was struggling with the first week, and I don't feel obsessed or bound to the sugar/caffeine combination. Maybe it was the bad food I was eating (leftover pizza)? I feel like I failed today, yet I'm not completely upset with myself. My soda intake has been cut down drastically: I was drinking 2-4 cans every single day. So for that I am proud, but I did have to tell you guys.
Did you workout today?
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 17
I feel AMAZING!
My body wants to move, and I love obliging. Before nursing school, before I gained 50 lbs. in 2 years, I loved to dance. I danced all the time! When those pounds started creeping on, and school-related stress left me exhausted, it didn't feel good to dance anymore. Now, I haven't lost much weight, but it's finally starting to feel good to dance again. I think it's all the encouragement and motivation from the YouTube community. More people are watching now, and that really pushes me to do better. I'm regaining my passion for things, it's incredible. I'm learning to love life, just as it is.
Inspired by the H4H theme this week (exercise), I got up and moved my butt. As you may recall, I did not workout at all last week. I put on a song I've been loving lately (G-Get Up and Dance by Faber Drive) and I lifted weights, jumped around, danced, and just moved every part of my body. I took little snippets of it and made a video. I felt so stupid putting that video up there, but I was really driven to somehow share the wonderful energy I had with everyone.
I'm not a good dancer, at all, but when I drop the weight I want to learn how to dance like the cool kids on So You Think You Can Dance. :D
What are you passionate about?
My body wants to move, and I love obliging. Before nursing school, before I gained 50 lbs. in 2 years, I loved to dance. I danced all the time! When those pounds started creeping on, and school-related stress left me exhausted, it didn't feel good to dance anymore. Now, I haven't lost much weight, but it's finally starting to feel good to dance again. I think it's all the encouragement and motivation from the YouTube community. More people are watching now, and that really pushes me to do better. I'm regaining my passion for things, it's incredible. I'm learning to love life, just as it is.
Inspired by the H4H theme this week (exercise), I got up and moved my butt. As you may recall, I did not workout at all last week. I put on a song I've been loving lately (G-Get Up and Dance by Faber Drive) and I lifted weights, jumped around, danced, and just moved every part of my body. I took little snippets of it and made a video. I felt so stupid putting that video up there, but I was really driven to somehow share the wonderful energy I had with everyone.
I'm not a good dancer, at all, but when I drop the weight I want to learn how to dance like the cool kids on So You Think You Can Dance. :D
What are you passionate about?
Monday, August 16, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 16
This is going to be quick. I'm freaking exhausted and don't want to pull another stunt like the other night where I stay up for 25 hours.
Weighed-in today at 337.4 lbs. That's a 3.2 lb. loss for the official H4H2 week #1, yay me! :) A total of 5.6 lbs. down for August thus far. Pretty damn excited about that.
Other than jumping/dancing around with excitement, I have not worked out. I don't plan on working out either. I only got about 4-5 hours of sleep, so I'm still a little sleep deprived. Tomorrow will be better.
Food has been okay. I had BBQ chicken and rice, for breakfast (weird, I know). Lunch was that cucumber salad, but this time with chicken. I'm still stuffed. I'll probably have a protein shake for dinner, or I might just go to bed. Not sure yet. lol
Peace & Love <3
Weighed-in today at 337.4 lbs. That's a 3.2 lb. loss for the official H4H2 week #1, yay me! :) A total of 5.6 lbs. down for August thus far. Pretty damn excited about that.
Other than jumping/dancing around with excitement, I have not worked out. I don't plan on working out either. I only got about 4-5 hours of sleep, so I'm still a little sleep deprived. Tomorrow will be better.
Food has been okay. I had BBQ chicken and rice, for breakfast (weird, I know). Lunch was that cucumber salad, but this time with chicken. I'm still stuffed. I'll probably have a protein shake for dinner, or I might just go to bed. Not sure yet. lol
Peace & Love <3
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 15
Thank you Sonia for reminding me to blog tonight! lol
I really don't have much to say about today.... I went to bed at 5am (after being up since 4am the previous morning) and slept all day, until dinner. So obviously the food went well. I am going to workout; I'm thinking 45 minutes of cardio.
Did anyone else watch Star Wars on Spike? lol I love that channel, they always play the trilogies. Sorry this is short and boring, really not much to say. Sleep...yeah. That might take a while to fix.
Oh! I almost forgot to tell you guys. I had a Mountain Dew with dinner. Let me explain myself here. I grabbed it out of habit, and when I took that first sip I was disgusted. However, I drank it all because I didn't want to waste it. I feel kind of guilty, not totally because it's been 5 days since I last had a soda, but still. Just another thing I need to work on, but shouldn't be too hard.
Hope your Monday is amazing! <3
I really don't have much to say about today.... I went to bed at 5am (after being up since 4am the previous morning) and slept all day, until dinner. So obviously the food went well. I am going to workout; I'm thinking 45 minutes of cardio.
Did anyone else watch Star Wars on Spike? lol I love that channel, they always play the trilogies. Sorry this is short and boring, really not much to say. Sleep...yeah. That might take a while to fix.
Oh! I almost forgot to tell you guys. I had a Mountain Dew with dinner. Let me explain myself here. I grabbed it out of habit, and when I took that first sip I was disgusted. However, I drank it all because I didn't want to waste it. I feel kind of guilty, not totally because it's been 5 days since I last had a soda, but still. Just another thing I need to work on, but shouldn't be too hard.
Hope your Monday is amazing! <3
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 14
Today started at 4am. Yesterday was miserable, and I'm still recovering. I'm very dehydrated and super tired. So blah! I hope tomorrow is better.
4:30 am: bowl of Reese's Puffs cereal (sugar galore)
8:30 am: cinnamon raisin bagel w/ cream cheese (hello carbs)
2:30 pm: cucumber salad w/ bacon, cheese, & ranch dressing (yum!)
5:00 pm: small bowl of ice cream (could/should have had an apple)
7:00 pm: BBQ chicken breast & rice (so freaking good, ate too much)
My lunch was pretty amazing, I must say. I picked a cucumber from our garden, sliced it up and topped it with 2 strips of bacon and a few thin slices of pepperjack cheese. I know, I know...I should have skipped the toppings, but I needed some fat and protein. It took me 30 minutes to make the salad, and it was so so good. I never thought of having a salad without the lettuce. We have so many cucumbers, I can have this for lunch quite often. It was so hydrating, which I desperately needed. I drank 68 oz. of water today, effortlessly.
I have not exercised at all this week. Due to the lack of sleep, and more recently the hangover, I have not had the energy to move much. I'm still losing, which is so great, but I don't want to get comfortable with being lazy. Tomorrow is Sunday, always a perfect time to get back on track. I am so ready for bed, I think the sleep thing is falling into place. Hopefully the stomachache will be gone tomorrow. I want to dance, but the tummy doesn't agree with gut-crunching moves.
Oh, I spent 8 hours of my day watching and commenting on H4H videos. It was very overwhelming, I left the most cliche comments, and more videos were still coming in. I wanted to comment on everyone's video each week, but unfortunately I don't think I'm going to be able to do that. I'll try to watch as many as I can, but I'm afraid to comment on those who are not on my team...it wouldn't be fair if I couldn't get to everyone. Rawr! I wish there were an easier way.
Everyone is kicking ass, and I'm learning so much from all of you. This challenge is off to an amazing start. I hope we all stick it out for the full 12 weeks.
I need some sleep now. Goodnight! <3
4:30 am: bowl of Reese's Puffs cereal (sugar galore)
8:30 am: cinnamon raisin bagel w/ cream cheese (hello carbs)
2:30 pm: cucumber salad w/ bacon, cheese, & ranch dressing (yum!)
5:00 pm: small bowl of ice cream (could/should have had an apple)
7:00 pm: BBQ chicken breast & rice (so freaking good, ate too much)
My lunch was pretty amazing, I must say. I picked a cucumber from our garden, sliced it up and topped it with 2 strips of bacon and a few thin slices of pepperjack cheese. I know, I know...I should have skipped the toppings, but I needed some fat and protein. It took me 30 minutes to make the salad, and it was so so good. I never thought of having a salad without the lettuce. We have so many cucumbers, I can have this for lunch quite often. It was so hydrating, which I desperately needed. I drank 68 oz. of water today, effortlessly.
I have not exercised at all this week. Due to the lack of sleep, and more recently the hangover, I have not had the energy to move much. I'm still losing, which is so great, but I don't want to get comfortable with being lazy. Tomorrow is Sunday, always a perfect time to get back on track. I am so ready for bed, I think the sleep thing is falling into place. Hopefully the stomachache will be gone tomorrow. I want to dance, but the tummy doesn't agree with gut-crunching moves.
Oh, I spent 8 hours of my day watching and commenting on H4H videos. It was very overwhelming, I left the most cliche comments, and more videos were still coming in. I wanted to comment on everyone's video each week, but unfortunately I don't think I'm going to be able to do that. I'll try to watch as many as I can, but I'm afraid to comment on those who are not on my team...it wouldn't be fair if I couldn't get to everyone. Rawr! I wish there were an easier way.
Everyone is kicking ass, and I'm learning so much from all of you. This challenge is off to an amazing start. I hope we all stick it out for the full 12 weeks.
I need some sleep now. Goodnight! <3
Friday, August 13, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 13
Well, what can I say about today?
I haven't eaten anything since 10:30pm, last night. I had about 10 shots of vodka mixed with some SunnyD, at least that's what I can estimate as a minimum. I was up all night, drunk, until 11am this morning. I passed out for a couple hours at a time, and in between sleep I felt like complete crap. I still feel like crap. I don't want to drink that much ever again.
Just so you all know, I don't normally drink that much or that often. I don't know where the bright idea to do that came from, but I do regret it. I'm making a pizza now and downing a lot of water.
Working out has been a no-go. I'm going to try to get my act together and get some cardio in tomorrow. The scale continues to make me happy. :p
Happy Friday the 13th! <3
I haven't eaten anything since 10:30pm, last night. I had about 10 shots of vodka mixed with some SunnyD, at least that's what I can estimate as a minimum. I was up all night, drunk, until 11am this morning. I passed out for a couple hours at a time, and in between sleep I felt like complete crap. I still feel like crap. I don't want to drink that much ever again.
Just so you all know, I don't normally drink that much or that often. I don't know where the bright idea to do that came from, but I do regret it. I'm making a pizza now and downing a lot of water.
Working out has been a no-go. I'm going to try to get my act together and get some cardio in tomorrow. The scale continues to make me happy. :p
Happy Friday the 13th! <3
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Days 8-12
Sorry for the lack of updating; that tends to happen when you're not doing so well (or have the perception of not doing so well). Let's get you all caught up.
Day 8
Rest day! I wasn't a complete bum like I thought I would be, I danced around a little bit, but nothing I would call "exercise." Food-wise, I did okay. I stayed right at my calorie budget, but I ate a lot of carbs. Bleh. This was the last day I tracked calories.
Day 9
Weigh-in day, oh noes! I had been up all night when I stepped on the scale, and when I made my video with my body shot I had been up for over 24 hours. I need to sleep more. So, my weight was 340.6 and that is a loss of 2.4 lbs. I was hoping for at least 3, especially after working out for 7 consecutive days and cutting out 250-500 calories worth of soda. Honestly, I was really disappointed by such a low loss. That's probably why I didn't exercise.... :/
Day 10
Again, no exercise, but the number on the scale is steadily going down. The sleeping thing is still not great. I slept in until 3:00pm. I ate an apple and had chicken for dinner. That counts as low-carb, right? lol I wasn't really hungry that day. I had a Coke! I actually had 2.... It didn't taste as good as it use to or as I was imagining it would, and it made me feel sick afterwards. The reason I had 2 cans was because I was trying to make myself like it again. Why? I have no idea! I usually don't eat much when I drink soda too, it gives me energy and calories so I'm usually all set to go without food. However, I don't like the taste anymore and it makes my tummy very unhappy. I didn't think I would actually make it to that point, and now I doubt I'll be drinking it anymore. Yay!
Day 11
I feel so much better when I'm not counting calories. I kind of keep track of what I'm eating in my head and am choosing lower calorie stuff. I've actually not been that hungry these past few days. I'm also not working out. Oh, and I think not having a soda craving is helping too. I really think that's why I was eating so many carbs. But...I am drinking a lot more juice. By the way, the water intake has not been so good, maybe half of what I should be drinking. I'll work on that when I get this sleep thing back on track.
Day 12
It's almost 10am, and I've been up since 3pm yesterday. Not good! So I'm posting this early because I'm going to try napping enough to get me through the day and hopefully go to bed at a normal time tonight. The scale is making me very happy, and this morning I was so motivated to get back to my workouts. It's just hard right now being all sleep deprived and crap. But I promise that I will do something active today! I want to keep seeing that number go down.
I need to say one more thing before I stop rambling. The comments people have been leaving on my video for Week #1 are amazing, absolutely amazing! They're so sincere and so sweet. I can really feel the love from everyone and it seriously brought tears to my eyes to know that people actually care and understand. I love you guys! Here's to a fat kicking week. :D
Day 8
Rest day! I wasn't a complete bum like I thought I would be, I danced around a little bit, but nothing I would call "exercise." Food-wise, I did okay. I stayed right at my calorie budget, but I ate a lot of carbs. Bleh. This was the last day I tracked calories.
Day 9
Weigh-in day, oh noes! I had been up all night when I stepped on the scale, and when I made my video with my body shot I had been up for over 24 hours. I need to sleep more. So, my weight was 340.6 and that is a loss of 2.4 lbs. I was hoping for at least 3, especially after working out for 7 consecutive days and cutting out 250-500 calories worth of soda. Honestly, I was really disappointed by such a low loss. That's probably why I didn't exercise.... :/
Day 10
Again, no exercise, but the number on the scale is steadily going down. The sleeping thing is still not great. I slept in until 3:00pm. I ate an apple and had chicken for dinner. That counts as low-carb, right? lol I wasn't really hungry that day. I had a Coke! I actually had 2.... It didn't taste as good as it use to or as I was imagining it would, and it made me feel sick afterwards. The reason I had 2 cans was because I was trying to make myself like it again. Why? I have no idea! I usually don't eat much when I drink soda too, it gives me energy and calories so I'm usually all set to go without food. However, I don't like the taste anymore and it makes my tummy very unhappy. I didn't think I would actually make it to that point, and now I doubt I'll be drinking it anymore. Yay!
Day 11
I feel so much better when I'm not counting calories. I kind of keep track of what I'm eating in my head and am choosing lower calorie stuff. I've actually not been that hungry these past few days. I'm also not working out. Oh, and I think not having a soda craving is helping too. I really think that's why I was eating so many carbs. But...I am drinking a lot more juice. By the way, the water intake has not been so good, maybe half of what I should be drinking. I'll work on that when I get this sleep thing back on track.
Day 12
It's almost 10am, and I've been up since 3pm yesterday. Not good! So I'm posting this early because I'm going to try napping enough to get me through the day and hopefully go to bed at a normal time tonight. The scale is making me very happy, and this morning I was so motivated to get back to my workouts. It's just hard right now being all sleep deprived and crap. But I promise that I will do something active today! I want to keep seeing that number go down.
I need to say one more thing before I stop rambling. The comments people have been leaving on my video for Week #1 are amazing, absolutely amazing! They're so sincere and so sweet. I can really feel the love from everyone and it seriously brought tears to my eyes to know that people actually care and understand. I love you guys! Here's to a fat kicking week. :D
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 7
Just finished up my 30 minute workout. Feeling good!
Of course, the scale played a role in that awesome feeling too. I'm back down at 340.6 today. I'm hoping to keep it off until Monday.
Today started late; I didn't get out of bed until 3pm. I know I know, that's ridiculously late. I didn't go to bed until 5:30am. The reason I stayed in bed so late is because my mom is off today. Whenever I'm awake when she's here it's like she suddenly can't do anything for herself. That's not to say that I don't like to, or try, to help my mom out; she just lounges around on the computer and has my brother and I bring her things or do random chores around the house that she said she was going to do. I often get stuck dying and styling her hair. It's just a pain in the ass when I have my day planned out and it doesn't include pampering her. Whatever.
Since the day started late I ate lunch, dinner, and a snack. I managed to stay within my calorie budget, and after working out I am about 300 calories under for the day. I'm going to shower, get to bed, and force myself to sleep so I can get back on a normal sleeping pattern and not spend the night snacking.
I worked out 7 days this week, woo hoo!
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. :)
Of course, the scale played a role in that awesome feeling too. I'm back down at 340.6 today. I'm hoping to keep it off until Monday.
Today started late; I didn't get out of bed until 3pm. I know I know, that's ridiculously late. I didn't go to bed until 5:30am. The reason I stayed in bed so late is because my mom is off today. Whenever I'm awake when she's here it's like she suddenly can't do anything for herself. That's not to say that I don't like to, or try, to help my mom out; she just lounges around on the computer and has my brother and I bring her things or do random chores around the house that she said she was going to do. I often get stuck dying and styling her hair. It's just a pain in the ass when I have my day planned out and it doesn't include pampering her. Whatever.
Since the day started late I ate lunch, dinner, and a snack. I managed to stay within my calorie budget, and after working out I am about 300 calories under for the day. I'm going to shower, get to bed, and force myself to sleep so I can get back on a normal sleeping pattern and not spend the night snacking.
I worked out 7 days this week, woo hoo!
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. :)
Friday, August 6, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 6
It's been 4 days since my last drink. Yes, it's that serious. lol
The cravings were so strong today, especially when I saw my mom come home with a 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (the same bottle I had with me at all times January-May of this year). Plus, it was dinner time. Dinner is never a good meal because my parents cook it. Oh wait; it's delicious, but it's the most unhealthy part of my day. I always had a can of soda with dinners.
I think cutting the soda out is what's making me eat so poorly. I'm trying to satisfy that craving. In the past, it was hard getting past the headaches. I don't have those now, but I still want it so bad. It's pathetic.
Today I went over my calorie budget by 125 calories. I still have to workout, and I plan on burning at least that much. It's my last night of lifting weights, yay! My body has been so sore. I haven't had much energy, my workout last night sucked because of it, and I haven't been able to sleep as well. I thought exercise was suppose to help you sleep better.... All I have is tonight and tomorrow left because I've declared Sundays rest days. I think it works out nicely since my weigh-ins are now on Mondays. Kind of like a weigh-in day preparation.
Speaking of weigh-ins, my weight hasn't budged since yesterday morning. It's pissing me off. I've been thinking about it, and even with me going over my calorie budget a couple times I'm still taking in less than before and burning something every night. The soda I was drinking accounted for at least 250-500 calories of my daily intake. So I should be losing. If my weight is the same or higher on Monday I don't know what I'm going to do. Well, I do. I'm going to cry and get frustrated, and then I'm going to get super strict with myself and eat a bunch of apples and cucumbers. I need to go raw, this whole family does.
Okay, my head is starting to hurt and I need to get my sweat on.
Goodnight! <3
The cravings were so strong today, especially when I saw my mom come home with a 20 oz. bottle of Mountain Dew (the same bottle I had with me at all times January-May of this year). Plus, it was dinner time. Dinner is never a good meal because my parents cook it. Oh wait; it's delicious, but it's the most unhealthy part of my day. I always had a can of soda with dinners.
I think cutting the soda out is what's making me eat so poorly. I'm trying to satisfy that craving. In the past, it was hard getting past the headaches. I don't have those now, but I still want it so bad. It's pathetic.
Today I went over my calorie budget by 125 calories. I still have to workout, and I plan on burning at least that much. It's my last night of lifting weights, yay! My body has been so sore. I haven't had much energy, my workout last night sucked because of it, and I haven't been able to sleep as well. I thought exercise was suppose to help you sleep better.... All I have is tonight and tomorrow left because I've declared Sundays rest days. I think it works out nicely since my weigh-ins are now on Mondays. Kind of like a weigh-in day preparation.
Speaking of weigh-ins, my weight hasn't budged since yesterday morning. It's pissing me off. I've been thinking about it, and even with me going over my calorie budget a couple times I'm still taking in less than before and burning something every night. The soda I was drinking accounted for at least 250-500 calories of my daily intake. So I should be losing. If my weight is the same or higher on Monday I don't know what I'm going to do. Well, I do. I'm going to cry and get frustrated, and then I'm going to get super strict with myself and eat a bunch of apples and cucumbers. I need to go raw, this whole family does.
Okay, my head is starting to hurt and I need to get my sweat on.
Goodnight! <3
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 5
Counting every single calorie makes me want to rip my stomach out and hurl it across the room.
The scale showed me a horrifying number this morning: 343.4. That's higher than my starting weight. What the hell? I told myself not to let the scale bother me, but that's hard. Especially when I've been cutting back my calories, not drinking soda, and working out every day (by the way, I did workout last night for 20 minutes + 10 minutes of weight lifting). I have to keep telling myself that this is what happens; weight fluctuates. That's the whole point of me weighing in every day, to see that fluctuation. I just wasn't prepared for it to go down every day and then jump right back up in 24 hours.
I did go over my calorie budget today, by about 500 calories. I blame that on this morning's ordeal. Not a good excuse at all, I know. It was carb heaven today. I still have to workout, and I promise I will. I'm proud of myself for at least being consistent with the physical activity. And...I came so close to grabbing a Coke today. So so close. I even told myself that I wouldn't count it and wouldn't tell anyone I had it, but that's not what matters. I set a goal to not drink any soda for a week, for myself, and whether or not I hide it I would be disappointing me. I'm tired of letting myself down.
So the fight continues. I will not give in.
Have a great night everyone. <3
The scale showed me a horrifying number this morning: 343.4. That's higher than my starting weight. What the hell? I told myself not to let the scale bother me, but that's hard. Especially when I've been cutting back my calories, not drinking soda, and working out every day (by the way, I did workout last night for 20 minutes + 10 minutes of weight lifting). I have to keep telling myself that this is what happens; weight fluctuates. That's the whole point of me weighing in every day, to see that fluctuation. I just wasn't prepared for it to go down every day and then jump right back up in 24 hours.
I did go over my calorie budget today, by about 500 calories. I blame that on this morning's ordeal. Not a good excuse at all, I know. It was carb heaven today. I still have to workout, and I promise I will. I'm proud of myself for at least being consistent with the physical activity. And...I came so close to grabbing a Coke today. So so close. I even told myself that I wouldn't count it and wouldn't tell anyone I had it, but that's not what matters. I set a goal to not drink any soda for a week, for myself, and whether or not I hide it I would be disappointing me. I'm tired of letting myself down.
So the fight continues. I will not give in.
Have a great night everyone. <3
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 4
7:00 am-ish.
The time I went to bed *this morning*. Today started at 1:30 pm, again. It's up in the 90's now, so we have the window A/C unit on. It's in the kitchen and hardly cools off the bedrooms. Kind of miserable.
Here's what I ate:
Chow Mein (480)
Italian Herb crackers (140)
2 hot dogs w/buns (~500)
2 cups of mac & cheese (680)
I've only had about 16 oz. of water, plus whatever amount was in my tea (had 2-3 cups of that). I'm just not feeling all that great today. I'm craving a Coke, but I won't have it. I figured I would at least make it through 7 days without any soda (today is day 2), and maybe have half a can if I'm still craving it after that.
The parentals and I went for a drive on the parkway. I didn't do too well this time. It's frustrating that I'm not consistent, and I have no idea what that's about. I'm hanging out with them and that's why I'm making this short and posting earlier than usual.
I stayed within my calorie budget, and I haven't worked out yet. I need to, and will. I'll update you on that tomorrow. Until then, have a wonderful night everyone. :)
The time I went to bed *this morning*. Today started at 1:30 pm, again. It's up in the 90's now, so we have the window A/C unit on. It's in the kitchen and hardly cools off the bedrooms. Kind of miserable.
Here's what I ate:
Chow Mein (480)
Italian Herb crackers (140)
2 hot dogs w/buns (~500)
2 cups of mac & cheese (680)
I've only had about 16 oz. of water, plus whatever amount was in my tea (had 2-3 cups of that). I'm just not feeling all that great today. I'm craving a Coke, but I won't have it. I figured I would at least make it through 7 days without any soda (today is day 2), and maybe have half a can if I'm still craving it after that.
The parentals and I went for a drive on the parkway. I didn't do too well this time. It's frustrating that I'm not consistent, and I have no idea what that's about. I'm hanging out with them and that's why I'm making this short and posting earlier than usual.
I stayed within my calorie budget, and I haven't worked out yet. I need to, and will. I'll update you on that tomorrow. Until then, have a wonderful night everyone. :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 3
:( :( :(
Last night I was watching King of the Hill, and it was the episode about Luanne's alcoholic mother and her going back to the bottle. Then I watched Orphan and saw the mother struggle with her drinking problem, and right then I realized how bad my addiction to food is. The way this woman was struggling to keep herself from taking a sip is how I feel trying to keep my calories under control. That's sad! When and why did I let food have this kind of control over me?
I had the hardest time falling asleep last night. It's been unusually cool (high 60's/low 70's), and now it's warming back up to the 80's. I kept thinking about having a piece of brownie with caramel sauce drizzled on top; kept thinking about it...and thinking about it....after 30 minutes of thinking I went and got the damn brownie and drizzled warm caramel sauce on top of it. A 235-calorie late night snack, if I didn't have the caramel sauce I wouldn't have been 65 calories over yesterdays budget. In terms of the calories, it's not so bad, but I'm disappointed in myself for giving in and having it. It gets worse though, after watching Orphan and having that little epiphany, I ate 2 slices of pizza (700 calories). I'm counting those as part of today's calories since it was 2am when I ate it. Why oh why?! I'm making adjustments accordingly; and while the habits still aren't good, maybe this is a more realistic way of handling them. Eventually I will be eating more healthy foods, I plan on adding more raw foods into my diet as soon as I get a job.
I didn't get out of bed until 1:30 pm. So for lunch I had a PB&J sandwich and an apple. It's a satisfying low-cal meal. Dinner consisted of 3 scrambled eggs, one of those BagelThins, and a slice of cheese for a total of 470 calories. Then I was feeling hungry and had a slice of pizza (270 calories), and later I had a brownie with the caramel sauce (235 calories). I know I know, not the best choices. Not sticking to that goal I made this week too well either, huh? In all fairness, everything I ate was within my calorie budget (after I worked out), and my main focus is to not drink my calories through soda. Yes, this is how I justify myself.
My body is sore from working out yesterday, and I fought with myself to move. It's sooo hot! I can sweat just lying here watching TV. So my workout was later this evening and I only did 15 minutes. I still worked up a good sweat, thanks to the humidity. What I did was a combination of moves from Hip Hop Abs, briskly walking in place, and some kickboxing moves. Nothing too dramatic, but it was enough to wake me up and get in some cardio. I think getting in cardio 3 days in a row is the farthest I've ever made it. Woo hoo! I'm looking forward to day 4.
I got all my water in for the day, 76 out 64 oz. I've also been drinking some tea that I saw another YouTuber talk about. It's from Teavana and it's called Weight To Go!. I hate tea, but when I water this stuff down and mix it with a little grapefruit juice it's not too bad. So it adds a little variety to the endless bottles of water; I don't know if it works, but I did lose 1.2 lbs between yesterday and today. I'm just saying.... It could also be the fact that I'm eating/drinking less calories than before, moving more, and drinking a lot more water. I don't count the tea in my waterlog, so I'm most likely getting more than what I'm tracking.
I feel like I'm rambling and that anyone who reads this is shaking their head in disappointment. :/
Goodnight interwebs. <3
Last night I was watching King of the Hill, and it was the episode about Luanne's alcoholic mother and her going back to the bottle. Then I watched Orphan and saw the mother struggle with her drinking problem, and right then I realized how bad my addiction to food is. The way this woman was struggling to keep herself from taking a sip is how I feel trying to keep my calories under control. That's sad! When and why did I let food have this kind of control over me?
I had the hardest time falling asleep last night. It's been unusually cool (high 60's/low 70's), and now it's warming back up to the 80's. I kept thinking about having a piece of brownie with caramel sauce drizzled on top; kept thinking about it...and thinking about it....after 30 minutes of thinking I went and got the damn brownie and drizzled warm caramel sauce on top of it. A 235-calorie late night snack, if I didn't have the caramel sauce I wouldn't have been 65 calories over yesterdays budget. In terms of the calories, it's not so bad, but I'm disappointed in myself for giving in and having it. It gets worse though, after watching Orphan and having that little epiphany, I ate 2 slices of pizza (700 calories). I'm counting those as part of today's calories since it was 2am when I ate it. Why oh why?! I'm making adjustments accordingly; and while the habits still aren't good, maybe this is a more realistic way of handling them. Eventually I will be eating more healthy foods, I plan on adding more raw foods into my diet as soon as I get a job.
I didn't get out of bed until 1:30 pm. So for lunch I had a PB&J sandwich and an apple. It's a satisfying low-cal meal. Dinner consisted of 3 scrambled eggs, one of those BagelThins, and a slice of cheese for a total of 470 calories. Then I was feeling hungry and had a slice of pizza (270 calories), and later I had a brownie with the caramel sauce (235 calories). I know I know, not the best choices. Not sticking to that goal I made this week too well either, huh? In all fairness, everything I ate was within my calorie budget (after I worked out), and my main focus is to not drink my calories through soda. Yes, this is how I justify myself.
My body is sore from working out yesterday, and I fought with myself to move. It's sooo hot! I can sweat just lying here watching TV. So my workout was later this evening and I only did 15 minutes. I still worked up a good sweat, thanks to the humidity. What I did was a combination of moves from Hip Hop Abs, briskly walking in place, and some kickboxing moves. Nothing too dramatic, but it was enough to wake me up and get in some cardio. I think getting in cardio 3 days in a row is the farthest I've ever made it. Woo hoo! I'm looking forward to day 4.
I got all my water in for the day, 76 out 64 oz. I've also been drinking some tea that I saw another YouTuber talk about. It's from Teavana and it's called Weight To Go!. I hate tea, but when I water this stuff down and mix it with a little grapefruit juice it's not too bad. So it adds a little variety to the endless bottles of water; I don't know if it works, but I did lose 1.2 lbs between yesterday and today. I'm just saying.... It could also be the fact that I'm eating/drinking less calories than before, moving more, and drinking a lot more water. I don't count the tea in my waterlog, so I'm most likely getting more than what I'm tracking.
I feel like I'm rambling and that anyone who reads this is shaking their head in disappointment. :/
Goodnight interwebs. <3
Monday, August 2, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 2
Today started very badly. I woke up with a terrible headache, probably because yesterday's sugar intake was so much lower than my body is use to and part of that is due to the fact that I didn't have a single can of soda (woot woot). However, old habits kicked in this morning. Do you want to know what I ate for breakfast? It isn't pretty.
4 slices of toast topped with the cheese sauce I used last night (and buttered)
2 slices of leftover pizza
1 can of Mountain Dew
Oh yeah.
I almost talked myself into not including the specifics in this post, but I need to face the truth here and be accountable. I am embarrassed that I lost control and ate all that CRAP. That "meal" was about 1,145 calories. I was able to plan lunch and dinner to still fit withing my 1985 calorie budget (with exercise).
It's actually 5:30pm as I write this. Already I have done 30 minutes of physical activity, working up a better sweat than yesterday, and I'm not even hungry for the small lunch I planned. So while I am still disappointed in myself for eating the junk, I feel better knowing that I was able to stop and actually use those calories for my workout.
Since our team updates are on Mondays, I'm moving my weigh-ins to that day. No big deal, only one extra day. But, I have started weighing in every day. I'm trying not to be discouraged by the numbers (or the opposite, eating more because they're going down), but I'm interested in seeing exactly how my weight fluctuates based on what I do each day. Today's official weigh-in is 342.8 lbs. Yesterday it was 343.0 lbs. (my highest ever, suckfest). I won't be posting my daily weights here, but at the end of each month I'll post the graph showing all the changes.
Okay, so I ate that peanut butter and jelly sandwich I had planned for lunch (360 calories, funny how using the "natural" PB costs me more calories). Then I completed a simple, 10 minute, strength training routine focusing on arms. I figure my legs get enough of a workout through dancing, but when I feel like it I'll throw in some squats and calve raises. This was followed by dinner.
2 chicken breasts (small, marinated in Italian drsg w/lemon pepper seasoning, dipped in ranch drsg.)
1 cup of mashed potatoes
That's 590 calories. Oh, I forgot to mention that I had a little piece of brownie to curb the headache and satisfy my craving. Dude, it worked! For 50 calories I had something I wanted and felt better without going overboard. Small accomplishment, but I'll take it.
I lowered my water goal. This week I am aiming for 64 oz., your standard daily intake. When I am able to comfortably drink that much I will up it to 84 oz., and continue on with that method. Trying to drink 170 oz. every day is crazy; my head felt like it a water balloon when I went to bed last night. Why do I always do things so extremely? lol That's probably why I haven't gotten very far. I drank 71 oz. today, and might drink another 17 before bed.
So today didn't start out so great, but I feel awesome for accommodating for the mishap. This H4H challenge is actually working too. Seeing everyone else's motivation in their videos and getting amazing support from the community really pushed me to do better today. Thank you all for your love and encouragement. It means the world to me. :)
4 slices of toast topped with the cheese sauce I used last night (and buttered)
2 slices of leftover pizza
1 can of Mountain Dew
Oh yeah.
I almost talked myself into not including the specifics in this post, but I need to face the truth here and be accountable. I am embarrassed that I lost control and ate all that CRAP. That "meal" was about 1,145 calories. I was able to plan lunch and dinner to still fit withing my 1985 calorie budget (with exercise).
It's actually 5:30pm as I write this. Already I have done 30 minutes of physical activity, working up a better sweat than yesterday, and I'm not even hungry for the small lunch I planned. So while I am still disappointed in myself for eating the junk, I feel better knowing that I was able to stop and actually use those calories for my workout.
Since our team updates are on Mondays, I'm moving my weigh-ins to that day. No big deal, only one extra day. But, I have started weighing in every day. I'm trying not to be discouraged by the numbers (or the opposite, eating more because they're going down), but I'm interested in seeing exactly how my weight fluctuates based on what I do each day. Today's official weigh-in is 342.8 lbs. Yesterday it was 343.0 lbs. (my highest ever, suckfest). I won't be posting my daily weights here, but at the end of each month I'll post the graph showing all the changes.
Okay, so I ate that peanut butter and jelly sandwich I had planned for lunch (360 calories, funny how using the "natural" PB costs me more calories). Then I completed a simple, 10 minute, strength training routine focusing on arms. I figure my legs get enough of a workout through dancing, but when I feel like it I'll throw in some squats and calve raises. This was followed by dinner.
2 chicken breasts (small, marinated in Italian drsg w/lemon pepper seasoning, dipped in ranch drsg.)
1 cup of mashed potatoes
That's 590 calories. Oh, I forgot to mention that I had a little piece of brownie to curb the headache and satisfy my craving. Dude, it worked! For 50 calories I had something I wanted and felt better without going overboard. Small accomplishment, but I'll take it.
I lowered my water goal. This week I am aiming for 64 oz., your standard daily intake. When I am able to comfortably drink that much I will up it to 84 oz., and continue on with that method. Trying to drink 170 oz. every day is crazy; my head felt like it a water balloon when I went to bed last night. Why do I always do things so extremely? lol That's probably why I haven't gotten very far. I drank 71 oz. today, and might drink another 17 before bed.
So today didn't start out so great, but I feel awesome for accommodating for the mishap. This H4H challenge is actually working too. Seeing everyone else's motivation in their videos and getting amazing support from the community really pushed me to do better today. Thank you all for your love and encouragement. It means the world to me. :)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Hot 4 Halloween - Day 1
New plan! (Sorry.)
I decided I'm just going to record little pieces of what's going on each day and compile them together into one update video. That's how I use to do things, it made the video slightly more interesting, and it gives me a little more pressure to stay on track. So that's what's up with that.
Today started at 8am, which is an hour later than I had wanted to wake up, but I guess that's what you get when you don't set any alarms. At 9 am I had a healthy, protein-filled breakfast that actually took me an hour to eat.
I decided I'm just going to record little pieces of what's going on each day and compile them together into one update video. That's how I use to do things, it made the video slightly more interesting, and it gives me a little more pressure to stay on track. So that's what's up with that.
Today started at 8am, which is an hour later than I had wanted to wake up, but I guess that's what you get when you don't set any alarms. At 9 am I had a healthy, protein-filled breakfast that actually took me an hour to eat.
Look at this mess:
3 egg whites (w/ cayenne pepper, turmeric, & garlic powder)
1 slice of plain toast
3 egg whites (w/ cayenne pepper, turmeric, & garlic powder)1 slice of plain toast
That was followed up with slices of apple topped with peanut butter. All for a satisfying 280 calories.
Now let me tell you, this was my first time eating plain 'ol egg whites. Not my favorite, at all. They were a weird texture; I had to pair each bite with a piece of toast to get it all down. The cool thing is, I felt fuller longer than I ever have before. Bonus!
I planned on working out at 12:00pm, for 30 minutes (finishing just in time for the first team reveal), but I put Hip Hop Abs on for like 5 minutes and just did not feel like moving. I forgot that I hadn't taken my initial measurements yet, oops! So I used the rest of the time to do that. Then I watched the video revealing Greg's team, and after that I felt motivated to workout for real this time. At 1:15pm I did my first round of cardio for 30 minutes. Yes, I do plan on doing another 30 minutes after lunch. I need to, and more importantly I want to!
Lunch was 3/4 cups of Spanish rice & chicken, 2/3 cups of mashed potatoes, and 1/4 cup of cashews. That's about 650 calories. I realize that's a bit much for lunch, but it all fits within my calorie budget. I planned it all out last night. The cashews were suppose to be my AM snack, but I wasn't hungry.
It's 3:00pm, and I just watched the second team reveal. Yayyy! I'm on Jess's team and so are a few people who have been following me since pretty much the beginning of the year. How exciting!
Why is it taking me an hour to eat food? Not that I'm really complaining. Fat people eat fast, so this is good progress.
After lunch I did another 15 minutes of cardio, for a total of 45 minutes today. Then I had an apple about an hour before dinner. For dinner, things kind of fell apart. :/ I had 3 porkchops (but by the time I trimmed the fat it was more like 2), a cup of steamed broccoli with homemade cheese sauce (sorry, I have a hard time eating broccoli without cheese!), a cup of noodles, and I dipped the porkchops in some barbecue sauce. That all ran around 1,200 calories. Yikes!
According to my Lose It application I was only 160 calories over my daily budget (set at 1985). So not too bad, but I could have done better. I'm about to go to bed, and so far I feel pretty good about my first day. I didn't have any soda, I ate healthier food (and less of it), I worked out, and I drank a lot of water. Speaking of water, I didn't hit my daily goal of 170 oz. but I did drink 125 oz.! That's more than I've ever tracked before. Yay progress!
I'm so tired. A change of plan to the change of plans.... Again, sorry! I will be posting a video tomorrow in response to our team's weekly challenge. Apparently it's setup different from what I thought. So, we're just going to go with the flow. Stay tuned for daily blogs, because I will be giving you updates on how each day is going. I may not go into so much detail next time because this is a lot of crap to read and it's not necessary to be so specific. Anyway, thank you for reading and goodnight! :)
Now let me tell you, this was my first time eating plain 'ol egg whites. Not my favorite, at all. They were a weird texture; I had to pair each bite with a piece of toast to get it all down. The cool thing is, I felt fuller longer than I ever have before. Bonus!
I planned on working out at 12:00pm, for 30 minutes (finishing just in time for the first team reveal), but I put Hip Hop Abs on for like 5 minutes and just did not feel like moving. I forgot that I hadn't taken my initial measurements yet, oops! So I used the rest of the time to do that. Then I watched the video revealing Greg's team, and after that I felt motivated to workout for real this time. At 1:15pm I did my first round of cardio for 30 minutes. Yes, I do plan on doing another 30 minutes after lunch. I need to, and more importantly I want to!
Lunch was 3/4 cups of Spanish rice & chicken, 2/3 cups of mashed potatoes, and 1/4 cup of cashews. That's about 650 calories. I realize that's a bit much for lunch, but it all fits within my calorie budget. I planned it all out last night. The cashews were suppose to be my AM snack, but I wasn't hungry.
It's 3:00pm, and I just watched the second team reveal. Yayyy! I'm on Jess's team and so are a few people who have been following me since pretty much the beginning of the year. How exciting!
Why is it taking me an hour to eat food? Not that I'm really complaining. Fat people eat fast, so this is good progress.
After lunch I did another 15 minutes of cardio, for a total of 45 minutes today. Then I had an apple about an hour before dinner. For dinner, things kind of fell apart. :/ I had 3 porkchops (but by the time I trimmed the fat it was more like 2), a cup of steamed broccoli with homemade cheese sauce (sorry, I have a hard time eating broccoli without cheese!), a cup of noodles, and I dipped the porkchops in some barbecue sauce. That all ran around 1,200 calories. Yikes!
According to my Lose It application I was only 160 calories over my daily budget (set at 1985). So not too bad, but I could have done better. I'm about to go to bed, and so far I feel pretty good about my first day. I didn't have any soda, I ate healthier food (and less of it), I worked out, and I drank a lot of water. Speaking of water, I didn't hit my daily goal of 170 oz. but I did drink 125 oz.! That's more than I've ever tracked before. Yay progress!
I'm so tired. A change of plan to the change of plans.... Again, sorry! I will be posting a video tomorrow in response to our team's weekly challenge. Apparently it's setup different from what I thought. So, we're just going to go with the flow. Stay tuned for daily blogs, because I will be giving you updates on how each day is going. I may not go into so much detail next time because this is a lot of crap to read and it's not necessary to be so specific. Anyway, thank you for reading and goodnight! :)
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