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Wow, lack of sleep really effs up your brain.
I didn't track calories yesterday and I probably won't today. My thinking is clouded by sleep deprivation and right now I'm saying screw it no more calorie counting. Ugh.

I've gotten 8 hours of sleep in the past 2 days, so I'm thinking I'm not all here right now. I'm tired, but not tired enough. For me, I have to be completely unable to keep myself awake before I can fall asleep, which is probably why I have such messed up sleeping habits/patterns/whatevers.

It's suppose to snow all day and feel like 3 to -2 effing degrees today. Summer was a bitch, but the cold hurts. I'm having a hard time keeping myself warm this winter, and that doesn't make any damn sense because I have more fat now. Blubber.

Ignore this, I'm going to bed.
Goodnight! <3

Sleeping the day away really sucks.

Another sleepless night, and I lacked the determination to make myself get up before 5pm. Oh yeah, it was bad.

I can't promise that I won't have anything else that contains calories, but I'm going to try my hardest to keep everything but water out of my mouth and try to get back on a normal sleeping schedule. Today's net caloric intake: 1938.

I feel like dancing, but I'm not going to count that as exercise. See how off these numbers are? I wish I could afford a BodyBugg; I plan on getting one as soon as I can (if the need for one is still there, of course). The tracking isn't as bothersome as it has been in the past, but I just don't want to do it anymore because I know it's completely inaccurate. Also, I do not plan on tracking calories my whole life, so it seems kind of ridiculous to be doing it at all. I almost can't stop though because I like seeing the patterns of when, why, and what I eat. I'll finish this week out, but I'm thinking I might just switch my focus back over to eating when I'm hungry and making sure I'm only eating portioned out servings.

The trial and error game continues.

Oy vey...

I only got about 5 hours of sleep today, and we all know what happens when we're tired and forcing ourselves to stay awake....

Net caloric intake: 2400.
Thank god I got some kind of activity in today.

Success!

I'm guessing it was easier to control my intake today because I ate quite a lot yesterday, it tends to work out that way. Today's net caloric intake: 1888.

I'm going to try to get to bed early tonight so I can get the house cleaned tomorrow and plan out proper meals. We'll see how all that turns out. :p

Can I just say RAWR?!

Seriously, my weight is down 3.2 lbs. today. Why?!
The scale is so frustrating.

Just a quick vent, I'm really not that upset about it. :p
Now, let's see if I can keep it down there for next Wednesday....

Weigh-in Wednesday: Week 1

Well, I did in fact have a gain this week. My weight went up 1.4 lbs, despite following a calorie recommendation that should have allowed me to lose at least 1 lb. and I've been exercising. It's frustrating, but I'm still proud of myself for sticking it through to the end and doing everything right. Now I'm thinking the calorie recommendation that was suggested may be wrong. So for this week, excluding today, I'm going to try to keep my net caloric intake below 2,000 (or right at 2,000) because I think the upper limit that was set might be too close to my BMR. We'll see how that works. I know it's going to be difficult because having those up days where I was 200 or 300 calories over 2,000 really helped me with the days I ate less.

Everyone is so supportive, and I truly appreciate it. I'm waiting for someone to come around and just say it: "When the hell are you just going to lose this damn weight?" lol Seriously, this year I planned on losing weight....not gaining 10 lbs. This journey, thus far, has led me down a different path. I've started to change my mind, my attitude, the way I perceive things all for the better, and that's awesome. That's what still makes this year a success.

I still have a long way to go, not just with my weight, but I know I'll get there. Finding that balance between my logical self and my emotional self will allow everything else to just fall into place. The confusion and lost feeling are subsiding, and I'm starting to enjoy the ride. :)

This is it.

Today was a much better day, I was in a way better mood and I got a lot done. I exercised in short spurts throughout the day, ate sensibly, drank all my water, and just did the damn thing. Today was a success. :)

Net caloric intake: 1697.

I'm super nervous about tomorrow's weigh-in. I just want to say I've lost something, anything. I weighed myself yesterday and I was up 0.8 lbs, that sucks. Oh well, I'm still glad today went so well.

Oh Monday....

Overall shitty day.
Net caloric intake: 2619.

Baby it's cold outside...no really, it's freezing.

I don't think we got out of the 20's today. So freaking cold, and beautifully bright and white. :D

Spent the day cleaning and attempting to rearrange my room only to realize there's no room to move things around and had to put everything back the way it was, oh yay a run on sentence. Anyway, net caloric intake for the day was 1754.

Stay warm and be safe on the roads if you live in snowy/icy places (and if you live somewhere sunny and warm I'm glaring at you).

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas....

It snowed today, yay! It was gorgeous and magical, just as the first snowfall of winter always is.

Today was an off day, I ended up staying up for 24 hours watching movies all night. It was fun and I don't regret it, especially since it looks like I'll be dozing off at a decent time tonight. Went out for a drive in the snow flurries, took a 2 hour nap, woke up to a winter wonderland, and played in the snow all night. Now I'm freezing my ass off and desperately trying to warm myself up.

Because I hadn't gotten a decent night's sleep I decided today would be a free day for calorie watching; net caloric intake was 2398, still where I need to be for a loss. Still a success, so woo hoo!

Time for another movie, or two, and then off to bed.
Goodnight! <3