Hai!

I need to make a video, but I just haven't felt like it. :/

I've decided to step down from the Hot 4 Halloween challenge, as well as the 28-day challenge. This is something I've tried to avoid doing, but the more I thought about it the more I realized these challenges are just not for me. I do better when I'm on my own and doing this because I want to. It was a great experience; I had never participated in a challenge before. I've met some amazing people, and I do continue to follow all of them through YouTube, Facebook, and Twitter. I am so proud of everyone who has stuck with this thing, and I enjoy seeing you all succeed.

My life feels as though it's been turned upside down. I'm lost again. I should explain, but I don't feel like doing that either. I don't know what I'm going to do.... I need to deal with my emotions, but I'm finding it really hard to do that right now. Not sure why that is. Right when I'm about to figure these feelings out I push them back down and forget about them. It's weird.

The weather has been gorgeous here, and I'm hoping to step outside of my comfort zone pretty soon and start going for walks around the neighborhood. Why is that such a big deal? 1. I don't like being outside of the house by myself, 2. I don't know anyone here and really don't want to have to put on the cheery chitchat face, and 3. I know going up those hills are going to make me wheeze and fear someone seeing/hearing it. Stupid reasons, but I let them hold me back. That needs to stop.

I hope you're all doing well, the weekend is almost here. Yay! :)