Craziness.

I think that word sums up the past few days pretty well.

September 1st. You know what that means, don't you? We have officially completed the first month of Hot 4 Halloween. Congratulations to those of you who stuck it through thus far, and to those of you who realized this challenge just wasn't for you--you will be missed, a lot!

A lot of drama has been spreading through my team and it's really stressing me out. I wish people would stop causing trouble and just push their grudges aside so we can just do this thing without all the negativity. No I don't mean you should shut up and not voice your opinions, but whatever issues you may have with someone should be discussed privately with that person. I do feel a little let down by my team leader, only because she did not meet my expectations. It's not personal, nor is it completely her fault. I was expecting more communication, more interaction. Instead of saying you're unhappy and not getting what you need/expect why not tell that person exactly what you expect of them? I doubt our team leader is a mind reader, she's not going to be able to help you if you don't tell her what you need.

That's my two cents. I just want it all to stop. We even had Greg come in on our page telling us to stop, that's ridiculous guys. We're going to be tearing ourselves apart here pretty soon if we don't grow up and try to get along.

Now that that is off my chest....

This past weekend was not a good one. I slipped into one of those nasty funks and was feeling really down. Usually on Mondays I'm able to pull myself out and hop right back on the wagon, but this time it lingered a bit. Luckily, I had a lot of amazing people reach out to me and yank me out of that depressing mood. The support I received on Monday was incredible. I cried a lot, good tears though. I had never felt so cared for in my life, and it was genuine. You guys are amazing, and I love you so much. <3

Today should have been filled with exercise and NCLEX prep. I spent the day on both of my Facebook accounts. Flirting with Prince Charming on the one, and watching the soap opera unfold on the other. I answered about 20 NCLEX-style questions and got 75% of them right. Not too bad from being away from the material for 4 months.

Classes started at my college this week, on Monday. I want to be back there so bad. While school stressed me out to the max., I had so much freedom there and I really miss that. I went out, I walked around campus, I got to choose what foods I ate, I had people to talk to and hang out with, there was air conditioning (lol). I've always been in school, from pre-school to college... I don't know life without it, and right now I'm not really liking it. It must be my home, which I hate to say.

I feel as though I've put my family in a bad light, so to speak. They have bad habits, it's not their fault. Their reluctance to change is frustrating as hell, but I can't blame them. Habits are hard to break. My parents are able to lose weight eating crap and not working out, smoking and downing alcohol and Mountain Dew. I'm not. I love my family, and I'm very lucky to have them, but I can't wait to move out on my own.

I usually go back and read my posts to make sure they make sense, somewhat. I don't feel like doing that tonight. It's kind of all over the place, and if it seems completely off the wall...sorry. I have to get in some more study time before I do anything else tonight.

Have a wonderful week everyone! :)