I need to make a video, but I just haven't felt like it. :/
I've decided to step down from the Hot 4 Halloween challenge, as well as the 28-day challenge. This is something I've tried to avoid doing, but the more I thought about it the more I realized these challenges are just not for me. I do better when I'm on my own and doing this because I want to. It was a great experience; I had never participated in a challenge before. I've met some amazing people, and I do continue to follow all of them through YouTube, Facebook, and Twitter. I am so proud of everyone who has stuck with this thing, and I enjoy seeing you all succeed.
My life feels as though it's been turned upside down. I'm lost again. I should explain, but I don't feel like doing that either. I don't know what I'm going to do.... I need to deal with my emotions, but I'm finding it really hard to do that right now. Not sure why that is. Right when I'm about to figure these feelings out I push them back down and forget about them. It's weird.
The weather has been gorgeous here, and I'm hoping to step outside of my comfort zone pretty soon and start going for walks around the neighborhood. Why is that such a big deal? 1. I don't like being outside of the house by myself, 2. I don't know anyone here and really don't want to have to put on the cheery chitchat face, and 3. I know going up those hills are going to make me wheeze and fear someone seeing/hearing it. Stupid reasons, but I let them hold me back. That needs to stop.
I hope you're all doing well, the weekend is almost here. Yay! :)
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Kristie,
ReplyDeleteYou do what is right for you!! This challange has taxed a lot of people in many ways. Several have felt like they are better off on their own. They say they can be more accountable to themselves and more real.
It is to say that people can be more THEMSELVES to themselves that way...true. When on vid, people will somehow want to put on a positive personna. I commend you on your decision and I hope that you work through whatever it is you have to to succeed. If you ever need to talk, hit me up via email here on gmail or a personal message on YT or Twitter.
Good luck, my friend and keep on that beautiful smile!!
Hey Kristie! I have been missing your cheerful little face on YT. I dropped from H4H2 also. I wasn't in the right place mentally. I think I just joined to meet other people who were actively losing weight on YT. So many people come and go in this community. Anyway I am going to start making videos again shortly and began blogging at www.susssenrose.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteHope you will keep updating - either on YT or blogspot.
Also, I totally relate to what you wrote in this posting. I joined a gym because it had a pool, but I've never once worked out there because it seems intimidating! I can't bare to get to the pool :-/ Also, even though I live in the town I grew up in I really don't know anyone here. My old friends moved away and got married. And I just haven't really met anyone around here. I lived out of state for school and just moved back. Anyway this comment is way too long, ttyl! Lyndsay