Blah? Yeah, blah.

I've been in a rather bitchy mood the past couple of days. I'm not sure if it's the heat or the realization that in a few, very short days I'm going to have to push myself harder than ever before or face ultimate humiliation. :/

My diet needs a makeover. I'm currently learning about good carbs and bad carbs, cutting out the latter, and giving up soda (on August 1st). I would like to cut back on red meat consumption as well, although I really don't eat it all that often as it is. A raw food-type of diet is something I would like to incorporate; basically just eating more fruits and vegetables, cutting out as much processed shit as possible. A lot of wants...we'll see what actually takes place.

It is more difficult to do when I don't control the food that comes into this house, or have money to contribute, plus my family isn't interested in following me in getting healthy. Temptation is hard to resist when it surrounds you 24/7.

That's another thing; I've noticed that I always lost weight when I was away at school (despite living off of vending machines, take-out, fast food, and Mountain Dew) and I always gained it back (and then some) when I went home. *light bulb moment*

I love my family and still feel unprepared to fully live on my own as a real adult, but I need to get a job and get out on my own. My health will continue to suffer if I don't, and perhaps once I'm fit and lean my family will start taking my advice to heart and go on their own journeys towards healthy lives.